A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And thisis something worth celebrating.
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's the stage. Being on stage fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice. The music, the lights and the roar of the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share.
Many people told me: "Ricky it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've built will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I love dearly, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth. Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.
If someone asked me today, "Ricky, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, the misinterpretation of faith." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
RM
Poslato: 30 Mar 2010, 03:22
od Burak
Lijepo od njega.
Ajmo sada da se ovi naši domaći ugledaju na njih pa da nas zapljusne serija estradnih outovanja.
Pa,njegova popularnost je odavno mala...
mozda je ovo bas cin da se povrati popularnost
bar kod gay populacije
a u mnogome je to olaksala Lady Gaga
i
sliek Dzordz Majkla sa ceskom muskom prostitutkom na jahti...
Valjda...
elem
Rekao je sta je rekao
i
jos uvek ga volimo kao i pre (dok nismo znali da je gay )
Poslato: 30 Mar 2010, 13:23
od Sheytan
Tačno Renoir.
Ja samo želim da mu to dodatno ne ugrozi popularnolst.
I ja se stvarno nadam da bi mu gay populacija i priznanje da je homoseksualac možda moglo da pomogne da se ponovo nadje u vrhu svetske popularnosti, iako mu to očigledno nije nemera. Šta više, negde sam pročitao da je on ranije odlučio da se povuče sa muzičke scene ...
Poslato: 30 Mar 2010, 13:28
od ~ Le Saint X ~
Neka snimi duet sa Lady Gagom
i bice
TOP
et toq!
Poslato: 30 Mar 2010, 13:39
od kal zakath
In other news
The sun rose in the east today, and is expected to set in the west this evening.
Na onoj fotki u uvodnom postu (mada i na ovoj Marsovoj gde lezi u pesku sa dechicom) me podseca/lichi na jednog forumasha...
Poslato: 30 Mar 2010, 16:40
od Galadriel
nema veze sto su svi znali bitno je istaci da je to nesto na sta si ponosan. mnogo lepse nego da te uhvate blicevima sa pandurom na gomili u javnom wc.
edit: i coveche, kooooliko je slatko da gay tata ima dva sina
Kao u nekoj bajci... koju nazalost nisam citao kao mali.
